listening to: you were meant for me by Jewel

ok im fucked. can.
my 2 best fren are fighting n i feel so helpless cus im tryin to help mend dem, which i did.
but they just wont. fine , if u guys want it tis way let it be den.
after all the years we built our frenship, this is how it suppose to end???
both is stubborn, both make mistakes both needs to forgive .
but both just think that they are right and i do not take any sides ok.
i just want the trios back like we used to be.
i guess i cant asked for much rite, look at the way things are goin now.


the way it seems my life is fallin apart.
i lost my specs, the black one.how dumb can i get?
mum doesnt noe still....
but mum noes about someone.
n my pay... gosh, its onli next week but den
i have to give mum 100 bucks for next month transportation, den get myself a spec.
den thot of buyin the new phone.sony ericsson that has MP3 in it. which means i can save
money from buyin any MP3. see.... den need to save some moeny to go for the bali trip.
i dun even think that my pay can withstand what i've planned for next month.
im dead.broke.out of luck.wats more to come?
wat have u planned for me god?

fareez is facin skool prob, n i dunno how else i can help him except hugs n words.
wish i could do more..
damn, im so fucked again.

end my shopping here
;10:10 AM

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Listening to : Night Air by Teddy Geiger

im so beat.
dead beat tired!
MON- got home at 9 pm.
TUES- got home at 9 pm.
WED- got home at 11 pm.
THRUS- got home at 8 pm.
TODAY- goin home at 12am!
TMR- got art at 9 am.
den probably i die on sun.
so how?
red bull? i cant... i need my bed.really badly need it.
im sitting in class... tryin hard to make my brain function
although my head is realli heavy to the max.
i dunno how im goin to do my UT later on.
probably do wat Nisa did.....u noe wat i mean rite nisa?
yeah pris and i did painting for Sammy. n it was quite aight.fine lines are just so tedious to do.

graffiti was aight too.. didint do much as i was tired after doin sammy's paintin.
Eeshaun combines his design to our "eye". It looks like Medusa sorta thing but it's whacked mann. go see if ur free.N den mum wanted to watch movie... so yeah we watched POSEIDON.
it's nice n thrillin. mum was stressed when she watched it. she bully me too when we were on our way back in the train.

N oh ya.. goin for e BALI trip wif art club peeps!
i think it's goin to be fun. We'll be doing mural painting and i think others.
ok seriously im freakin SLEEPY.
n ya bought a mango skirt.

end my shopping here
;2:45 PM

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Listening to: Learn to fly by Foo Fighters

you.have saved me from the storm and make me bloom like a sunflower.
you .have made the meaning of"Absence makes the heart grow fonder" meaningful.
you. have put back the smile that i have forgotten.
you asked a question that i was afraid might lead to an end, cus the previous one ended
like that.
you. feared me then but still i stick on. i will. =]
you. say all those sweet words, i hope it's real, cus mine are.
you.seemed so nice and pretty cute that it's hard to say no.
you.are very-bery hugable i must admit.
you.of all i love dearly.

end my shopping here
;9:41 PM

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Im sitting in class... n my stomach hurts.
the kind where you need to go to the loo.
and damn she(the fac) can like go on askin questions like no-one business.
IM in a REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE POSITION HERE!!
hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i cant go cus the next team is mine.... blah.............

end my shopping here
;3:08 PM

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Listening to:Lo Lo Lo VE by Ashlee Simpson

i change my skin again. Im not sure how long will this skin last..
anyways things are changing around me.
i think im growin. well firstly, i was on TV mobile for this short interview
about which hollywood star has influenced me and why..
it was a pretty short interview. But i never did expect that they would really
use my shot.Ahaks... i was a lil excited...but most might think it's lame..
but wth.. im still happi.

Went to Zouk last friday nite and it was fun. =]
PURE FUN! i dance wif none other than Fareez, he was proctective.
But i like. He says to stick wif him cus got a lot of NS men. haks.
Tank U BEat for the free invites!!!!!!!!! Gosh.. ur a savior my dearie!
My frens were so happi too.. thanks dear. U look gorgeous gurl~
u n clement look so sweet mann.... heh. all the best to u guys ya...:)

I celebrated mother's dae last nite. kin came over and help me bake a cake
for my mum. We had fun.We even watch Scary movie 4 while we wait for the
cake to be bake.That show is whacked mann! Then once it was done, i tot of
cuttin it inot a heart shape, but then kin tot of cuttin into an M shape. So we stick
to M shape and it turn out cool!! heh.. Kin went off and so i did.. that is to sleep.haks
So went i woke up, i started to think of cookin dinner for them. My mum and dad.
So i go fry eggs and some luncheon meat(chicken) and ikan bilis for them. It is like my
mum's fav. So yeah i even thot of havin dessert which is peach fruit..(in the can one la)
den when my dad got home, i guess he was shocked.hahaks cus i never cook before and yet there are like lots of food on the table. A shocker i noe. So yeah i also did this little alphabets
that says "HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY" and paste it on the wall and decorate the living room
with candles. I think it look super cool.. i really like it. I hope she did. anyways she got home
she was smilin hahaks... like really shocked smile... n she was like sayin tank you to me..
Like TWice which is weird but it felt nice. =] im glad i made her day.

n we sat down n had our dinner.The dinner that i prepared. My mum say i can get married already. Im like ahahks....that's crazy. So yeah... she loves the cake that we bake for her. Tanks
kin for helpin. :) she says it's like Mrs Field like that...
this comin week is gonna be packed i think. hrmmm.... happy mother's day to all MOthers!!~

end my shopping here
;10:56 PM

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Listening to: 1979 by smashing pumpkin

todae was a fucked up dae in the morning.
Cus i woke up at 8am when my class starts like 1/2hr later.
u must be saying jeezzzz rite....
ahaks.
i suddenly woke up and then i see 'eh why so bright?'
den who else came in my room and nagged at me like one machine gun?
dotttdoottttdoottt...
den i went to wake my dad up and asked him to send me.
so yeah go bathe then jus picked anythin to wear and was ready.
BUT den my mum was damn slow....
left house at 8.20.!?!?!??!??!!!! wen we could have left at 8.15.
5 mins is still precious time ok... wen ur late la.
tis is what pissed me off today.
she den can say i never took skool seriously from last time!
AAARGH!!!!
IF I NEVER TOOk SKOOL SERIOUSLY I WOULDNT BE WHERE I AM NOW.
BLOODY ASS DUNNO HOW HARD I TRY TO PROVE MYSELF TO HER
AND SHE DARE SAY THAT TO ME.
i wonder why i did study hard at all....
she alwaes like to compare me to my bro during primary skool
i dunno why im so dumb in primary skool.
and i finally shine when i was in secondary skool and for 3 years i got scholarship..
she finally shut up.
U noe why she shut-up? cus the amount i got was something she cant talk about.
It was 500 bucks each time.
i shouldnt have worked hard. waste my bloody time.
she doesnt noe how i always try to prove myself to her.
she's only happy for a second i guess and forget about it the next second.


im so shagged and my legs are really tired.
shouldnt have watched queen of the dammed.
watch MI:3 it is action packed like duh~ but it's truly a suspense.

talked last nite and hrmmmmm....................... still skeptic a lil.
although some part of me is sayin, 'yes trust him.'

i hate life.

end my shopping here
;7:32 PM

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