Listening to :Nasty Girls by Destiny's Child

i think i like this song.. the beat is nice keeps me groovin and the lyrics ahaks are meaningful to minahs..wakaka.ok im soo mean.

u nasty girls put some clothes on, i told ya'
dun walk out of ya house without ur clothes on, i told ya'
girl what ya thinkin bout lookin to down, i told ya'
These men dun want no hot females thats been around the block female, nasty gurl
u so N-A-S-T-Y, ur so F-R-E-A-K-Y
gurls where's ur P-R-I-D-E, put some clothes on.

i went to MTV Fashionably loud yest wif pris, shake n salleh. it was fun!! =p thanks missy prissy for invitin me.. =] gosh luv ya to bits!!! anyway we took photos wif denise keller,sher(e tattoo guy) n other models too. wah.. i was so amazed how pretty they are.. gosh.. compared to me..hahaks im like only 1/8 of their beauty. haks! so lame.. no wonder that explains how low my love life is goin. explains it all. sher has a band of his own n we are askin him to come perform for us... at rp. i think he's songs are nice.. simmilar to blink 182 but more cool la the lyrics.. interestin. i like actually. if ever they cut an album, i'll get it. i've asked the Derst whether they wanna perform at our skool but yeah.. we'll see how ya..they say they reply me tonite. i hope it's a yes. the more band perform the better. but dunno whether we can handle it. so hrm.. but it's amazing la this new CAPS goin about.. it gets me excited! iok ok im soo gonna be late i need to meet kin n zag.. plus need zag's help to scan my designs.. ugly designs.yucks..

Listening to: MOVE ALONG by all american reject.

this lyfe. jus soo irksome!!

do u noe that im soo naive?? so naive that i was blind to see the obvious?!? Or im jus being oblivious at the signs that was clearly spelled everywhere .But i'm being the usual stubborn self n choose not to see it yet again.so dumb ok. i gave my all, n i was ready to walked thru the journey wif him but it came crashin down yest. but i guess the love i have for him was never meant to be was it?

i think i was tryin to hard to make it perfect but i was kiddin myself rite... since when life is ever close to perfect?stop livin life like its a fairytale ju!! gosh im a sucker for stoopid fairytale... i told myself before that i wouldnt wanna believe in love and that i shud not take things seriously again not after fabian.BUT im doin again, believin that what me n him had was going to be good. Only to find out that i sold myself to misery again. how crap can love get?? I know im not the only one sufferin this heartache, there's others too. but seriously u think so much about it, it makes no sense actually. we tend to give all that we can to show our affection n thinkin hard wat they truly feels...which i realli have no idea.n next thing ur parted.!!!?!!! so wats the point in gettin into a r/s that will cause us pain n joy. We sooo can prevent that. I shud do that ey.

thanks zag n kin for todae's company. thanks for comfortin. u guys are great.

n nisa n pris too.

i jus got home from town wif mum. She asked to meet after her work. N i bought myself a top! heh so nicey.its beaded some more.. :* shall wear it one dae.. yippies!!* jumpin up n down*

we talked a lot todae.. about rei chalet n all.. den laugh laugh, disturb her n talked bout the past. ahahks so enjoyable. we even gossip about the real niggers ahahks at KFC. oh my.. u shud have seen it mann. There were 4 of dem and they were soo eyeing on these 3 minahs who were sitting at the outdoor bench of the KFC.(Far East plaza) Before that my mum told me that they wanna get to noe the minahs. At first i didnt wanna believe her laa. So i keep quiet and den wa kao one of dem really go and talk to the minahs! ahahks

i was like "oh my gawd!!" luckily the minahs are smart enough to not leave wif dem. Haiz if they leave wif the niggers, i dunno what to say mann. my mum say these niggers come here thinkin that they could get away with the minahs with a one night stand. Im like "ewww". But i think rite, quite true la wat she says. Go geylang laa next time.. stoopid niggers.

Nvm bout that. Yest dear asked me to his hip hop IG chalet and hahaks i enjoyed myself. i didnt noe wat to wear actually, but den i just settle for a long sleeve black top (a bit like imogen kinda look.) wif jeans. And den i got there and get to noe more of his frens... but was still shy.Stick to dear like glue. hahaks dear sorri about pinchin u till ur t-shirt kinda a bit spoil. sowie ya.. didnt mean it.realli...

den after that dey go swimmin at the pool.dear got lots of muscles eh. nice nice heh. CA was farni.... n rei dear wah.. want me to go in the pool! pull me some more.. luckily i grab the table and my phone fall from it and haahks thats where dear stop pullin me and he went back into the pool without me. haahks boy i was glad that i wasnt wet at all... phew...!(btw my phone is still alive =]) den they play captain's ball and loss to the other team(outsider) and me n dear walked back to the chalet. dear bathe and i waited. while i wait, i listen to dear mp3. so many rock songs. heh... den got "where'd you go" the song so cool and we sing together some more. i sang the chorus while he do the rappin. hahaks so enjoyable la =]. he rap TWICE. =p=p=p=p his warmth is soo nice laa. hahks me want more can? den it was tyme to play game.. CA was the one in charge.. i didnt wanna play actually but was forced to. blah.. but i kinda had fun.We played charades,"no emotion" game, cheers n others. N sam got sabotage so bad. he was the cake u see... flour, egg,flour +egg, milk and glitter for shiny purpose? hahaks. Sam his drivin is hrm.. scary? he did a lot of driftin.. i onli noe ppl who does that in games rite? i was literally thrown to the other side of the seat.

N den me n dear haahks heated up some food as i was hungry and so is he.. he stirred, i stirred...turn by turn........ chef rei......... heh. CA cook the mee goreng, it was nice. me n dear ate n ate till our stomach content. N den me bargain wif mum to extend an hr n she let me.was supposed to get home at 11 but den bargain for 12. so like cinderella laa.-_-" i was glad so is rei dear.

den sam, dear send me home. =] thanks sam.

Listening to: Love Divine by seal

So the holis are here, and i find myself with nothing to do until mum offered me a job to stay home n clean the house... i didnt want to except that there's a catch to it. She's gonna give me like a few hundred bucks at the end of the month if i pull thru..includin paint the walls white again, laundry n all.. more like cinderella chores.I see there's no bad side to it.. i mean it might sound tedious and all but yeah it's more of a challenge for me plus it is a plus point as in i noe how to handle my own house when im older in the near future.. n wats good is that i get a few bucks for this. what u guys think? is it like worth it?n yeah i finish paintin this long wall ... n i had to put 2 coats so that it is like white white and not orange(the then color) boy,it was tough. Although my fingers hurt, when i look at it, i felt a lil proud. hey! i cant believe i just did that on my own. n todae, im paintin another wall and hahaks im wearin golves now that i learnt it's difficult to get rid of the paint spots on my hand yest. i had to like rubbed my hands hard cus i got the paint all over my hand(it splattered).

Mum got home and she got a bag for me. She didnt buy it exactly, she got free from her fren who's working in the make-up section.The bag is so classy and it's from Loreal or something.. And my laptop fits nicely in it and yeah i'll be carrying it to school one day. Yest i sat down in front of my computer screen and edit my template of my blog for i thought i need a new skin. And yeah i make it emo cus i cant deny the fact that im pretty emo at tymes. I kinda like the new skin. i think. Nisa say it's nice and so does pris and rei dear. nisa was like 'woah ju you edit it on ur own?'-- yeah i wasnt capable of doing it last time. but now yeah... im learnin it. n wat's new in my blog is that i can upload all my motion pictures which i've captured in the "breathe" section.( but i havent upload it yet..soon it'll be.) It's gonna be cool cus i can display my art photos in dere. and you guys are free to view it. i've include videos too but yeah it's laggin unless you're really bored and dun mind waitin for quite some time, your more than welcome to watch it. =]

n ever since mtv has introduced me "where'd you go" by fort minor, im SOOO stuck to that song. it's an emo song, sad and all but it's nice. I think i got a thing for emo kinda songs. It's about family issue and all. The lyrics are meaningful.... to me that is. And dear likes that song too. He likes FM. No.. he loves FM. haks. He rap for me that dae. ahhaks was shy at first when i asked him to. He rap that song for me. Baby ur rappin is the bomb, dun be shy to do it again.. ya? N yeah i let him listen to my song.. the one i composed last year. The tittle is"see through" and i think he likes it. Well.. the words are true....

cus i need love, love's divine .. please forgive me now i see that i've been blind.. give me love, love is what i need to know my name...love can help me know my name.