Listening to: dance dance by fallout boy

sometimes i wonder why cant life be the way u want it to be..?
even u work hard for it.. u still seem so far away from it. i want this n i want that but im just sayin but not doin it. i hate myself for not doing it.i got to learn doing it.

i am alwaes leaving them lingering on a string when they tell me that they like me... why do i alwaes do that? i hate it. i really do. he confess that he likes me and i tell him that im not ready bcus i dun think gettin into a r/s again would bring me happiness its more towards pain. am i being selfish? he saes i have not gotten over a heartache. His actually wrong i have gotten over the heartache but i just dun think that im ready for any r/s yet. im not ready. i jus want to be alone ..enjoyin the singlehood. i do not want to be force into somethin that i might regret or say "shoots i shouldnt have" n den "what have i got myself into" in the later part.

it was nisa's b'dae yest, i did enjoy it a lot. but here's one tot that i want to blog about:
i sat at the bench in heeren level 3 wif dan, rin, nisa yest. yes we were tired at least i was. many couples passed and part of me sayin hrm..its nice to have someone but the other part is sayin hrm .. nah single still rawks. probably my heart has become an empty room.

clubbin.. when will we ever go kin dear? ur either busy wif skool or occupied whenever we get invites from frens.. i hope soon.. i'll still wait.