mood: suicidal thots.
listening to: hate me by blue october

GOLDFISH EYES.TEARS DWELL UP LIKE FOUNTAIN.

As i stand at the peak of the sharp glass, it shattered like broken pieces.
and so i fall into the hole, the hole that collected the tears.
i drown while everyone watch with the smallest smile at the end of their faces.
that evil smile and that hurtful sentence buried in me as i sank down.
be delighted now, my friend.

things will get better they say, but they secretly whisper to themselves "it wont".

end my shopping here
;8:34 PM

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Mood: Dancing like a 4 year old. ;)
Listening to: Can you read my mind by The Killers.
"teenage queen with a loaded gun, can you read my mind?"

it's been awhile, and im sorry zagg for not updating much which im suppose to..
well lotsa things has happened during the holis.the good, the bad and the ugly.you name it, it has happened.
yes yes... went ice skating which i adore and enjoy much wif zag n azfar.pretty awesome day i must admit.
n i went to the levis copper fashion show at taka( e white big tent) wif zagg dear, which was increadibly funtastic.
we've never failed to have a great time together huh......... ;)
zaggy has been a workaholic so have i. ok, crap i work only like 4 days a week for the past weeks.
unlike zaggy, she's pretty hardworking...working all week! haha...
i've been balancing most of the time and honestly, its tiring.
tired,tired,tired!*screams!*
ate at the crossroad(Marriot restaurant-outdoor)i had WILD mushroom wrap in pasta with an interesting sauce to go with it.It was pretty filling but i like the atmosphere and the food.yummlicious!
but i must say, that holis can be quite depressing.but there are small moments which i saviour.
n i bought a cute black dress, well someone think it is uber nice n consistently told me to get it, haha.
but it cost a bomb=(
boy ireally wish i can go mos this sat and really destress myself....for sch is openin soon.
i hate it for the fact that i have to change classes for 3 days.
i hate the fact that i have to wake up like 6 in the morning (which i think i'll be late for sch eventually)
i hate the fact that it'll be crowded in the bus, all buses.
i hate the fact that i miss workin morning on weekdays at deli since there's less crowds .
i hate the fact that there's less hanging out time wif my frens.
i hate the fact that there's a project to impress those lifeless evaluators.
i hate the fact that i have to be tired and keep on goin for 6 mths.
i hate the fact that my feelings will be messed up when sch start.
i hate the fact that i miss town very much.
i hate the fact that it'll be less time wif you.
well what do you hate?

but i do realized that music has definitely keep me away from the shadows.
went to ikea like for many times and the arrangement of the furniture hasnt change a bit!
are you dissapointed? well i was.
and oh ya! greatness, how could i've forgot to mention that i painted my wall!!!
my design was inspired by a really cool book borrowed from the lib.
and i really loved it although there's like 7/8 more to go.it's orange n purple.

roses, i love you especially today.
i love your delicate way.
you chilling my veins.
leaving the pain.
and i lose all control.
but dun be afraid the love that i show, is the love you made.

end my shopping here
;11:22 PM

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Mood: When expectation fails you.
Listening to:Starlight by Muse

Do you ever feel like screaming your lungs out just to satisfy your emotions?
im pretty emo these past few days, no idea why.

well i've been working like for the past 4 days and im dead tired.
plus having class chalet tmr till wed. double trouble 4 my body.
exhaustion.ok, i tried driving the tuscon and it's not easy at all!
bleah! it's so hard to judge now it's wider and arrgh! huge!shall practice more.
anyways glad i passed year 2 but i hate the grades.( i wished it was the opposite)
maintaing the gpa you want is difficult ey.......... and then when
expectation fails on you, you get dissapointed and wished that you were
given another chance and swear you'll do it all over again with the right attitude.

ok, enuff about my whines.tell me when can i ever quit whining?!?
i went shoppin wif the parents.and shoppED aloT.it was all from island shop at tanglin mall!
it was super uber cheap, like from 49 bucks to 9 bucks!a great sale wont you agree?;)
there's 70% off to most of the items.heh....bought 2 earrings, 2 tops, 1 skirt and 1 blouse.
and den had a heavy dinner together wif grams at (mat jambul road), had stingray, seafood soup,kangkong,
and omelette wif rice.yummy yum! and i think im growing FATTER! :( fatty bom bom jules! =* and we headed
to mount faber to watch the stars..haha no la..just to visit that old place.
winnie wanie has been a great manger...never would i tot that i can be close to a person who is
superior than me.haha glad to noe you winnie wanie.although you dun noe how to navigate a laptop
it's worth mentioning you here. =) heh and finally i get to taste glace! haha
i wanna try delifrance.............
lamb shank.
lobster bisque.
coq au vin.
aglio olio.
mussels.
calamaries.
hot chocolate cake melt.


*never in my life have i been so sure,so come on up to me and close the door*
this fairyale shudnt end......

end my shopping here
;11:46 PM

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Mood: Pretty messed up in my head, prolly the brain cells are about to die.
Liatening to: She moves in her own way by the Kooks.

I cant stand it when you always think i'll be there for you..
were you ever there for me? sheesh... i cant believe after all these long yrs..
it finally shows how you can possibly just call me up when you need help.
PLEASE STOP IT. met you at citylink and all you can do is show your smiley face
and think that im ok with it?!?suits you...i hate what you've become.

ok, besides the point that im pissed wif my fren.another thot occur.
tell me precisely when can you stop worrying about someone?
it's like 24/7 for me.i try not to think, i tried believe me.
but you wanna noe what they do at that hour,
and whether they think of you the same way as you are
or even do they recall the memories that they share?
do you get that feeling sometimes?
well i do and i wish i could press forward!
not rewind to the flashback.

and oh yeah, the new hyundai tuscon arrived last nite.
it's freaking huge, but yeah i loike.
but i do worry whether i can possibly drive that black thingy.
and it's auto! when i get used to manual,auto comes in the way..haha.
i miss hanging out wif zaggy dearie.
and i miss clubs.MOS especially.



WORRY WORRY SUPER SCURRY!
~oh,crap.

end my shopping here
;12:54 PM

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Mood: Black holes dug deep.
Listening to: What Goes Around by Justin Timberlake.

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around.........................

Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes

You cheated girl
My heart bleeds girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right

~Wat a brilliant song.and the video jus kills........

What happens when you noe someone close to you changed overnight?
do you freak out?
Well i suppose it's for the better..
But it jus bugs you to want to noe why..
why the sudden absurb change?
it feels weird knowing it
was it because of someone's love that it push him to do it?

im in love with starlight.
no, it's not a hidden person, it's the new song by MUSE.

*jules hoppin while singing*
"Far away. This ship is taking me far away.
Far away from the memories. Of the people who care if I live or die
Hold you in my arms"






http://blogs.glam.com/fashionweek/

end my shopping here
;12:44 PM

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Mood: Swinging sensations.
Listening to: Over my head by the fray

let's start with today...where did julie when *scratches her head*
got up from my human alarm clock mum who wanted to visit the museum so bad.
and so we got dress and had nasi lemak at the mama shop near samar cafe.(@ arab st).
and then it begins......THE DAY AT THE MUSEUM~ muahahaha.ok, crap.
well it was a fruitful visit...and it was delightful to know how s'pore was was back den.
From the old movie tickets which can pass as a notebook cover to the old films and camera
where they had huge tripod wooden stand.amazed.and there's this section well a room to be exact.
it was dedicated for fashion, what was the trend back den.From retro to vintage to classic and it's repeating
i guess now that retro fashion is back. :) you shud try visiting the museum.dun misjudge the outlook of it, you'll
be blown away with the modern-ish chic design that they had collaborated inside.i fall in love with the red chandlier
lights that swings 180 dgrees to perfection.haha.i stopped to take photos.anyway... they showcased PRamlee too.haha..."saya pergi skola L-E-M-B-U'.oh ya!we bought something interesting so that in years to come if i have children of my own, i let them learn the dictionary of Baba/Nyonya language.haha yes, we bought that.

after the visit, send off my dad to work and then mum suggested to visit the
irresistable IKEA. she was half hearted cus she was afraid i couldnt park the car, eventually we went.And she SHOP!
she's like having a guilt free pass...hahaah grabbing what she wants and make me carry most of it.and finally.......been wanting to get this one thing for a looong time which is............................................................................................................ a weighing machine.im delighted. ;) now i can weigh myself everyday! dun you wanna noe how much you weigh everyday? it rained while we round all of IKEA and still did even when we left.We had tea time at the IKEA cafe and had fries and coke/sprite.Well, i had sprite.
To sum it up, i enjoyed my monday morning. thank you my gaga goo goo parents.ok, that was random.

zaggy dear, the last outing we had was splendid bliss..haha with that gelare fat crunchy soft waffle and caramel ice cream work wonders!i had a blast time wif eu. i feel like we were tai tais~ haha.

"Life is a thornbush from which roses spring; all the hearts in Texas are wishing for you; I smother you with kisses that are in the letter."

end my shopping here
;4:32 PM

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